Life post #3

Is it normally to be afraid of death? I mean..i know it is part of the process of life but i think it is even more serious than this. Every time i pass through a church in which it is holding a "memorandum" of what the missed person has done during his/his life, i'm feeling petrified. And not because i did bad things and i'm afraid of being badly judged, but only because i feel that i did not show what can i do and what i WILL be able to do. I know I'm strong I know i can do miracles, and moreover i'm sure that this thing will let sth behind it. It is not over !

Life post #2

Sometimes I'm just thinking: do we make so many mistakes just for the damn of it, so that in the end we'll regret? I do this all the time and I'm always asking myself why? Is seems like is just an uncontrolable thing, sth that we do not want to do, like a reflex...but not anymore. We have been working so hard to fix every little puzzle piece, we cried , we lied, and now by chance we lose everything? I understand that it is part of the beauty of life, but can only one ordinary girl change everything? God is the only one who knows !